I decided that I should post something since I haven't for a while - and I very well might not for a while again. I lot has happened these last few weeks. Well, actually not a lot, but the weight of a few actions has created a significant impact on my life, so I think 'a lot' is relevant here.
I'm having some problems coping and have so many questions I've been asking myself throughout that I don't think I know who I am anymore. It's because of this that my post will be on the short side. I'll be the first to admit that my personality can sway from day to day depending on things so trivial as how or in what kind of mood I woke up today. Right now, I find that it's easier to seclude myself a bit more than what is customary. The roller coaster is broken, and I can't control it from diving when I'm in situations where I need to be social. Light bantering and laughter are difficult when the feeling that you could give two shits about most of your conversations and the laughter is hollow and forced sets in.
I guess I just hope that something good will eventually come, but for now I'm going to sit here over my keyboard in my dimly lit fortress. Next to me on my desk is a picture frame full of smiles that has a tendency lately to make me feel gloriously happy and desperately sad in rapid succession. For those few of you friends that do make it here once in a while, this is my vague excuse for having dropped off the radar lately. I'm still here.
I think.
